If I Ever Feel Better

Today I was about to do another post about atheism when I realised that it was probably time for a change of approach.  It dawned on me, as it does very occasionally, that there are people out there who don’t have regular updates on my life and are actually interested in what’s happening.  Since I don’t use Twitter, rarely update Facebook (although I lurk pretty often) and don’t have time to verbally update everyone in my life, I guess this little blog is a good a place to spread the word.

So 2009 is quite the year.  Just over a month ago, I started another job - possibly the most challenging yet and a strangely exhilirating one.  This weekend, I move across town to a new and unfamiliar neighbourhood.  In a matter of weeks, I’ll turn 28 and get married to the most beautiful, funny, ridiculous girl I’ve ever known.  Out of that list, only turning 28 doesn’t feature in the rankings of “biggest causes of stress” - and yet I feel strangely calm.

Perhaps it’s watching all my fears at the beginning of the year turn out to be baseless that has given me a new assurance.  There were a lot of fears and absolutely every single one failed to materialise.  There’s a lesson in there about always assuming the worst, but it’s one that I’m learning only slowly.

Everyone I know says that they keep expecting their life to simplify and it never does.  I think I now know that too - and that the secret is in learning to enjoy yourself and find fulfilment in the spaces between the busyness.  They’re not always easy to find, but they are there.  A piece of unremarkable wisdom, sure, but one I’ve seen others realise far later in life.